She spoke her truth. I can’t defend or justify the things I said when I was in my 20s. I was young and dumb. I never had any bad intentions with her or anyone. I just really liked her, and didn’t truly understand what was appropriate. I’m not sure I completely understand now. But I am a much different person now than I was then, and I’m more aware of boundaries. My orientation is not something I chose, and not something I can change. That attraction never came out of a place of wanting to cause harm. All I’ve ever wanted was to love and be loved. But I am committed to abstaining from illegal and unethical activity.
I’m now questioning everything I am. I’m questioning what I believe. My only solace is that she said I didn’t hurt her or ruin her life. But knowing that she feels that way about me, it hurts. She’s someone I truly care about, and still do. I have to do a lot of soul searching.
Don’t mass report. Don’t try to get it taken down. Don’t attack her.
I’m sorry.