A blog by Katie Cruz
Re: Has a little girl ever grown up and disappointed you with what she’s become or what she believes? This happened to me with J. She was a loving, friendly, and affection girl. I was in love with her, and hoped to one day marry her. I even got her family’s blessing when she turned
Every night, I find myself lying awake, longing for Lucy. I can’t shut my brain off. I watch TV, I listen to music, I read… but I can’t fall asleep, and I lay there missing her. Why do I have to carry this burden?
I wish I could know whether we’ll end up together in the end, or if she’ll move on without me. Without this closure, I’m stuck in limbo, unable to move on, myself. The odds aren’t in my favor. They never are. I hate this.
I have always been able to get over adult girlfriends within a month after a break up. But when a girl child is taken out of my life by parents or other extenuating circumstances, I can’t get over them. I’m forever grieving. It hurts. There’s no closure. And I’m left wondering what could have been.
It’ll be 8 years before she’s 18. I don’t know if I’ll see her again before she’s 18, or even after. Am I delusional to wait for her for that long, with no guarantee we’ll end up together in the end? I really don’t wanna be with anyone else, though.
It’s been a year and a half since I last seen her. But the pain I feel is still heavy. I don’t know how to move on, or get over her. It’s not like we ended on bad terms. Her family just pulled us apart. 😢
With the US withdrawal from Afghanistan, the Taliban has regained control over most of the country. The Taliban is reversing the progress made towards freedom for women and girls in that country. So many girls are being pulled out of schools. Women and girls are going into hiding, and so many Afghani people are trying
I just got home from work, I’m laying in bed, and I’m all emotional missing Lucy. What did I do to deserve this? How do you get over someone you love that is taken away from you? It’s not even like she was a girlfriend who dumped me, it’s her parents. How do you cope
Feeling lonely. Missing my favorite little love. I feel so empty without her. Why do I have to carry this burden of being a MAP? Occasionally finding love, only to lose it to misdirected hysteria. What did I do to deserve this?