Feeling lonely. Missing my favorite little love. I feel so empty without her. Why do I have to carry this burden of being a MAP? Occasionally finding love, only to lose it to misdirected hysteria. What did I do to deserve this?
I wish I could be honest in my Tinder profile: Probably won’t be too interested in you, but I’ll most likely fall in love with your daughters.
Yes I love her. I’d never hurt her. I shouldn’t even have to say that. That should be understood. I hate that we have to clarify that when we tell people we’re in love with children.
Was hanging with some friends tonight, and we were doing karaoke. I was sitting next to Lucy, so I started singing “Just the Way You Are“ by Bruno Mars. I was singing to her, but I was trying not to be obvious about it. Her dad joined in and started singing it to me like
Kinda bummed. I should be heading to Baltimore tomorrow for a B4U-ACT workshop and MAP meetup. Instead… staying home living that pandemic life. I was looking forward to seeing my friends, making new ones, meeting with mental health professionals and getting some crab soup. Sigh
Lucy: *playing Roblox, complaining about friends leaving the game* Katie: “I’ll never leave you though.” Lucy: *smiles* ❤️
The hardest thing for me as a MAP is giving Lucy space. I’m super clingy. I long for her affection and attention, but she doesn’t always want to give it. I have to remember that she’s her own person, and I’m one of many friends, and not her significant other. It’s hard sometimes.
Lucy’s my queen. I love her more than life itself. Her laugh makes me happy. Her cuddles make me feel safe and relaxed. I’d do anything for her.
If we had our own channel for MAPs, we could have a game show called “Are You Hotter Than A Fifth Grader.” Probably wouldn’t work too well, because: No. you’re not hotter than a fifth grader.
I don’t need your permission to exist. #MAP #MAPPositivity
