I need to take a break from the MAP Community. My mental health never completely recovered from the stressful events of last February and last summer. I’ve always been depressed, and anxious, but over the last few months I’ve become vengeful, chaotic, and numb. In the past month, I’ve hurt people who are close to me, and pushed them away. That’s never my intention, but it turns out I’m awful good at it. I need to take time to fix myself. I need to work on my mental and physical health and resolve some personal matters. I need to take time to grieve. I need to take time to reflect and evaluate my role in this community… where I belong, what I should be doing, and how I should be doing it.
Even though I’m away, I won’t be too far out of reach to the people I’m close to that I haven’t driven away. MAP Merch Shop will continue to run. And I will remain a keyholder for MAP Rights Forum, helping to maintain the forum behind the scenes. But otherwise I will not be involved in the day-to-day happenings of any MAP spaces.
This is not a goodbye, it’s just a “see you later.” I’m not sure for how long, but I will return one day. Stay safe. Take care of yourselves and each other.
❤️ Katie Cruz