A blog by Katie Cruz
There’s something so poetic and romantic about dying of a broken heart after losing the love of your life. I wish I could say the same about kidney failure. For years, I’ve been burning the candle at both ends. And now it’s catching up with me. They’re just two of an ever growing list of
Does your mom support you for being a MAP? Like have u come out to her and she’s supportive of it? My mother was one of the first people I came out to. I can’t say that she approves of me being a MAP, but she loves me regardless of my orientation. She understands and
It vaguely mentioned that her parents cut off contact, but why and how did it happen? You two seemed very close and happy together. It’s sad that you both lost contact just because of her parents. Lucy’s parents knew I was a MAP since we were in high school. Despite being the butt of all
I was recently asked a few questions… 1. How did I get comfortable being a public MAP? Years of being in the MAP community. Years of philosophy. I know who I am, and I know what I’m not. No one can take that away from me. 2. What’s it like being out and a public
I have a natural disposition for clinical depression. I think it has something to do with my ADD. I get bored. I’m creatively understimulated. There’s all these things that I want to do, yet for whatever reason, I’m unable to. Whether it’s lack of money, health issues, lack of connections, where I reside, or simply
Welp. It looks like it’s time to speak out. I’ve been contemplating how to go about this all day. Desmond Tutu once said, “If you are neutral in situations of injustice, you have chosen the side of the oppressor.” For too long, I’ve defended Newgon and given them a pass even amidst shitty behavior. I
I’m burnt out. It’s been a long time coming. Once I realized I was starting to burn out I tried to make changes to better my mental health, but by then it was too late. Over these past two years, being off work from a traditional job, I dedicated my time to the MAP community.
I’m always thinking about Lucy. Even three years after last seeing her. Yesterday, I imagined what if I seen her out at a store? What would she say? What would she do? Did her parents feed her society’s narrative that I’m a monster, and change her opinion of me? Would she avoid me. Would she
When I was a child, my career goal was to be “on TV.” I wanted to be famous, wanted to be a celebrity. Celebrities have it all, live a cool lifestyle, and their voice reaches a wide audience. But I never thought of the downsides of being famous. The constant attention, the scrutiny, the stalkers
This was part of a conversation I had with a fellow MAP on May 24, 2023. So to be an out MAP, ideally, a lot of things have to line up. You have to make sure you’re safe – safe from vigilante violence, safe in your relationships, and safe in your financial wellbeing. For me,