A blog by Katie Cruz
As a Christian, I am often asked about the intersectionality between my faith and my orientation. I’ve researched and written extensively about it on my blog. https://amapin.love/?s=christianity To answer the initial question, why did God create pedophiles? Simple. God needs people to love, advocate, and care for children. The meaning of pedophilia has been stretched
I’m always thinking about Lucy. Even three years after last seeing her. Yesterday, I imagined what if I seen her out at a store? What would she say? What would she do? Did her parents feed her society’s narrative that I’m a monster, and change her opinion of me? Would she avoid me. Would she
It’s not fair. I saw new pics of her today. She’s growing up. Without me. She’s got boobs now. Looks like her mom. So fuckin beautiful. And I just don’t understand why I can’t be in their lives. Why I can’t be in her life? It’s not fair. I’m so lost.
I’m watching MSNBC, and they are showing footage of refugees, and there’s this cute little smiling girl wanting the reporter to play soccer (futbol) with her. Awww she’s so cute, and I just feel so horrible that they’re going through this shit. I wish I could go over there and play soccer with her. Pick
Are you more romantically or sexually attracted to children? 95% Maternal/Romantic, 5% Sexual for me. Being a grey asexual, I’m just not all that into sex. I have to be deeply in love and emotionally attached to have a sexual attraction. I see many little girls, out in public, or through pics online and TV
How do you express love to someone? And what expression of love are you most receptive to? Take the quiz to determine your love language: 5 Languages of Love Physical Touch Acts of Service Words of Affirmation Receiving Gifts Quality Time _________________________ My result: I kind of already knew that touch is my language of
Occasionally I meet an adult woman that I find myself attracted to. Usually it’s because she has some teen or childlike characteristic, whether physical or personality-wise. It’s very rare, and I still consider myself exclusively attracted to girl children.
When did you discover your attraction? Who in your life knows? Looking back I’ve always liked young girls, but I started intensely feeling that attraction around puberty. Since I was close in age to them, I didn’t realize I was a MAP until I got older and they stayed the same age. I finally came
While being a MAP is a heavy burden to carry, there is an honor to it. One of my responsibilities as a MAP is to be a caretaker, protector, and advocate for children. While many people would do that out of a moral and societal obligation, I do it because it brings me joy. I
Antis ask, “How do you fall in love with a child? How do you find them attractive?” But my question for the antis is: “How do you not?” When your best friend’s seven year old little girl says, “I wanna take you to Disney Land,” how does your heart not melt? Or when the Bruno
