A blog by Katie Cruz
Since when is it ok to harass people for experiencing grief? Even if the grief seems to be extended and unreasonable to you, it’s not to the person experiencing it. Reminiscing, and crying, over the loss of a relationship is not bragging. It’s part of the healing process. When a loved one is taken out
I’m always thinking about Lucy. Even three years after last seeing her. Yesterday, I imagined what if I seen her out at a store? What would she say? What would she do? Did her parents feed her society’s narrative that I’m a monster, and change her opinion of me? Would she avoid me. Would she
Most of us remember where we were on the day of the September 11, 2001 attacks. But do you remember the day before? The innocence and security we felt? The world changed on 9/11. The children we love will never experience the world as we did before that fateful day. I watched a video created
It’s not fair. I saw new pics of her today. She’s growing up. Without me. She’s got boobs now. Looks like her mom. So fuckin beautiful. And I just don’t understand why I can’t be in their lives. Why I can’t be in her life? It’s not fair. I’m so lost.
I’m sick. I’m in tears. I’m angry that the most innocent among us can be taken in such a heinous, and violent way. That this has become so prevalent in America. Remember their names. This link is to a Twitter thread with names and pictures of the victims. This thread will be dedicated to the
The last time we were together, Lucy karaoked “Jester” by Badflower. I just watched the music video to that song, and between the lyrics and the plot of the video, and me associating that song with Lucy, it’s so heart-wrenching.
I had met another female MAP on Twitter last year. Her name was Alyssa. She was out to the world, sharing pictures of herself with GLogo earrings. She was hella cool, down to earth, and I can tell she had good intentions when it comes to children. Very wise beyond her years. And then like
Re: Has a little girl ever grown up and disappointed you with what she’s become or what she believes? This happened to me with J. She was a loving, friendly, and affection girl. I was in love with her, and hoped to one day marry her. I even got her family’s blessing when she turned
Every night, I find myself lying awake, longing for Lucy. I can’t shut my brain off. I watch TV, I listen to music, I read… but I can’t fall asleep, and I lay there missing her. Why do I have to carry this burden?
I wish I could know whether we’ll end up together in the end, or if she’ll move on without me. Without this closure, I’m stuck in limbo, unable to move on, myself. The odds aren’t in my favor. They never are. I hate this.