A blog by Katie Cruz
O que será será. Whatever will be will be. I fear nothing on this earth. I can protect myself until the moment I can’t. And when I no longer can, I’ll look death in the eye and grin, because I’m at peace with myself. I only fear God.
Guess who’s back. Back again. Katie’s back. Tell a friend. After a slightly irritating incident with who I’ve dubbed “TikTok Bitch” an anti who was targeting me, I am reopening the blog. Unfortunately, due to the misinformation she has spread, and because she allegedly contacted and traumatized the family of [REDACTED], I have hidden all
This survey explores the beliefs held by MAPs about their attractions. Participants will be asked to complete a survey that will last for 15-20 minutes, and respond to a range of different questions about their identity, and beliefs about attractions to children. There are also questions about wellbeing, social relationships, and sexual behaviors. The research
In reply to someone who shared the challenges they faced in their childhood: I lived a pretty sheltered life. I didn’t have nearly as many of the challenges you had growing up. But there’s something I envy about your story. Maybe it’s my messiah complex… that I’m a caretaker by nature. I wish I had
One of the philosophies I try to adhere to is asking: Who does this help? In the midst of conflict, ask yourself who is this helping? What good can come out of what I’m saying or doing right now? If you can’t give an honest answer about how it helps, that’s when you should reevaluate
I had the pleasure of meeting a fellow MAP through video chat yesterday. This person is someone I’ve talked with for a few years online. I’ve always gotten good vibes from them, and we’ve become rather close recently. It was a fun chat and it was cool to be able to put a face to
I joined the MAP community as a young, naive, teen. I was hopelessly in love with little girls and the prospect of a lifetime of loneliness seemed inevitable and devastating. I had radical ideas of legalizing relationships between adults and tween girls and looked for ways to be able to spend time with them. (Though
I think we will soon see a mass social rejection of the far-right’s hatred, as people move toward a more progressive and empathetic worldview. Pair that with continued scientific research, and there’s going to be a societal reckoning on the level of Stonewall, for the MAP community. -Katelyn Marie Cruz 24 Nov 2022 It’s gonna
Most of us remember where we were on the day of the September 11, 2001 attacks. But do you remember the day before? The innocence and security we felt? The world changed on 9/11. The children we love will never experience the world as we did before that fateful day. I watched a video created
It’s not fair. I saw new pics of her today. She’s growing up. Without me. She’s got boobs now. Looks like her mom. So fuckin beautiful. And I just don’t understand why I can’t be in their lives. Why I can’t be in her life? It’s not fair. I’m so lost.