A blog by Katie Cruz
In reply to a MAP who was just coming to terms with their orientation. A lot of MAPs were in denial about their orientation, and some were antis. Before I accepted myself, I thought all pedophiles were bad. I said all sorts of anti-pedophile stuff, almost as a form of overcompensation. We all have our
When did you discover your attraction? Who in your life knows? Looking back I’ve always liked young girls, but I started intensely feeling that attraction around puberty. Since I was close in age to them, I didn’t realize I was a MAP until I got older and they stayed the same age. I finally came
Re: Is encouraging non-sexual physical contact abuse? It’s just two people who who enjoy each other’s company. Nothing wrong with that. Through my body language and actions, I let Lucy know that I’m open and welcoming to affection. She reciprocates that sentiment, and we have spent hours on end cuddling. We have a bond, and
(This article appeared in Alice Lovers Magazine Issue 4, released April 24, 2019) I’ve known for a long time that I was a girl-lover. I’ve always found young girls to be desirable, on an emotional and physical level. I couldn’t explain these feelings and didn’t know why I felt that way. All I knew was
This was originally posted to the Visions of Alice forum. This past weekend, I traveled to Baltimore, Maryland, United States, to participate in the B4U-ACT 2018 Symposium: Expanding Focus. This was my first time attending such an event, and my first time meeting other self-proclaimed MAPs. Upon arriving at the conference center, I seen a
I invited my friends over for dinner last night. They brought my little loves. We started playing music, and I was trying to get them to headbang with me. They wouldn’t do it, and it devolved into both of them tackling me and pouncing on my back, as I screamed in somewhat fake agony. (Their
Last week, Lucy’s mom called and said she was supposed to babysit our friend’s daughter Annie, but couldn’t pick her up from the bus stop, because she needed to be home when Lucy gets off the bus. She asked me to go pick up Annie. I got there, and Annie who is usually shy, completely
I got to see Lucy again today. We spent hours just sitting on the floor playing. While trying to be a cat, she kept trying to sit on my lap, and I got to wrap my arms around her and hold her many times throughout the day. Eventually we sat on the couch, and she
Today was my last day in a customer-facing position at my company. To finish the night, I had a grandmother and her three granddaughters. One was probably early 20s, but the other two were 10 and probably 13. The two younger girls were very pretty and had wonderful smiles. The 13 year old had brown
I seen my lovely Lucy twice today. I went over to their house and Lucy opened the door and let me in. Lucy and I ended up getting into a pillow fight, which was nice. I had to leave to do other things for several hours, and her parents looked like they had other things