I just got home from work, I’m laying in bed, and I’m all emotional missing Lucy. What did I do to deserve this? How do you get over someone you love that is taken away from you? It’s not even like she was a girlfriend who dumped me, it’s her parents. How do you cope
Feeling lonely. Missing my favorite little love. I feel so empty without her. Why do I have to carry this burden of being a MAP? Occasionally finding love, only to lose it to misdirected hysteria. What did I do to deserve this?
Was hanging with some friends tonight, and we were doing karaoke. I was sitting next to Lucy, so I started singing “Just the Way You Are“ by Bruno Mars. I was singing to her, but I was trying not to be obvious about it. Her dad joined in and started singing it to me like
Lucy: *playing Roblox, complaining about friends leaving the game* Katie: “I’ll never leave you though.” Lucy: *smiles* ❤️
The hardest thing for me as a MAP is giving Lucy space. I’m super clingy. I long for her affection and attention, but she doesn’t always want to give it. I have to remember that she’s her own person, and I’m one of many friends, and not her significant other. It’s hard sometimes.
You ate my pot brownie…
A fantasy: I’m babysitting Lucy. We’re hangin out. I had just eaten a pot brownie before she arrived. I made us some Mac n cheese, while she was in my bedroom. I take it in there and find her laying on my bed, big smile, eyes barely open. “You ate one of my brownies didn’t
Lucy’s my queen. I love her more than life itself. Her laugh makes me happy. Her cuddles make me feel safe and relaxed. I’d do anything for her.
I invited my friends over for dinner last night. They brought my little loves. We started playing music, and I was trying to get them to headbang with me. They wouldn’t do it, and it devolved into both of them tackling me and pouncing on my back, as I screamed in somewhat fake agony. (Their
Last week, Lucy’s mom called and said she was supposed to babysit our friend’s daughter Annie, but couldn’t pick her up from the bus stop, because she needed to be home when Lucy gets off the bus. She asked me to go pick up Annie. I got there, and Annie who is usually shy, completely
Reuniting with her in the afterlife
I walked into the kingdom of heaven. Everything was clear and detailed. It was like my senses were magnified and I could see everything with such brilliance and intensity. I could breathe. Unlike before, it came with ease and felt so relaxing. I had energy, stamina and endurance. I sort of teleported as I walked.