A blog by Katie Cruz
She spoke her truth. I can’t defend or justify the things I said when I was in my 20s. I was young and dumb. I never had any bad intentions with her or anyone. I just really liked her, and didn’t truly understand what was appropriate. I’m not sure I completely understand now. But I
A while back, I had someone reach out to me with feelings they didn’t understand. We had a long conversation over the course of a month. Here are some excerpts of my half of the conversation. *This person opened up about their feelings.* Many of us as MAPs have gone through these same emotions, where
There’s something so poetic and romantic about dying of a broken heart after losing the love of your life. I wish I could say the same about kidney failure. For years, I’ve been burning the candle at both ends. And now it’s catching up with me. They’re just two of an ever growing list of
It vaguely mentioned that her parents cut off contact, but why and how did it happen? You two seemed very close and happy together. It’s sad that you both lost contact just because of her parents. Lucy’s parents knew I was a MAP since we were in high school. Despite being the butt of all
I was recently asked a few questions… 1. How did I get comfortable being a public MAP? Years of being in the MAP community. Years of philosophy. I know who I am, and I know what I’m not. No one can take that away from me. 2. What’s it like being out and a public
I have a natural disposition for clinical depression. I think it has something to do with my ADD. I get bored. I’m creatively understimulated. There’s all these things that I want to do, yet for whatever reason, I’m unable to. Whether it’s lack of money, health issues, lack of connections, where I reside, or simply
I recently received an unsolicited message asking if I would like to be interviewed about being a minor-attracted person. This would be a great opportunity to share my experience and insight into being a MAP, with an audience that is not generally supportive of MAPs. When vetting the interviewer, it became clear that their site
Since when is it ok to harass people for experiencing grief? Even if the grief seems to be extended and unreasonable to you, it’s not to the person experiencing it. Reminiscing, and crying, over the loss of a relationship is not bragging. It’s part of the healing process. When a loved one is taken out
I need to take a break from the MAP Community. My mental health never completely recovered from the stressful events of last February and last summer. I’ve always been depressed, and anxious, but over the last few months I’ve become vengeful, chaotic, and numb. In the past month, I’ve hurt people who are close to
Welp. It looks like it’s time to speak out. I’ve been contemplating how to go about this all day. Desmond Tutu once said, “If you are neutral in situations of injustice, you have chosen the side of the oppressor.” For too long, I’ve defended Newgon and given them a pass even amidst shitty behavior. I